I hope one day to inspire someone with the words I write on this page...
To help them through the difficult times in their life...
To make someone feel they aren't alone...
To maybe change someones life for the better...

But I hope for his sake he never reads this...

Friday, August 19, 2011

fivehundred'fiftytwo



I am occasionally loveable but for the most part I'm like loving a raincloud.

Thursday, August 18, 2011

fivehundred'fiftyone



There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted visions of people who embrace life.

fivehundred'fifty



If we fall in love because someone makes us laugh, what happens when we no longer find them funny? If we fall in love because someone is beautiful, what happens when that beauty fades? If we fall in love because someone can provide for us, what happens when they lose their wealth? Because love defies all reasons. When you truly love someone, you can't just find a reason.

fivehundred'fourtynine



Everyone once in a while, people step up. They rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you, and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes. It can push pretty hard, but if you look close enough you find hope in the words of children, in the bars of a song, and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you are really lucky, I mean if you're the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love will love you back.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

fivehundred'fourtyeight



But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes? I don't consider this a mistake, I just wish the story didn't end this way, because I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

fivehundred'fourtyseven



And more than anything, I wish you were here. I just wanna crawl in my bed and stay there until you come back. I miss you so much.

fivehundred'fourtysix



We think we know who we are, but we don't. Not until something bad happens to us.

Monday, August 15, 2011

fivehundred'fourtyfive



My theory was that if I kept my distance,
maybe you would see what you're missing.
You didn't.

fivehundred'fourtyfour



It's just how she lives; loving all the wrong people, and wishing for all the wrong things.

fivehundred'fourtythree



Loneliness as a situation can be corrected, 
but as a state of mind it is an incurable illness.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

fivehundred'fourtytwo



You don't always have to get rid of the pain. 
Sometimes you just have to get used to it.

fivehundred'fourtyone



Warning: I have a tendency to push people away in order to find out who really cares. I've figured out this is a terrible habit because I rarely find anyone who cares enough to come back and fight for me or something. 

fivehundred'fourty



I'm not sure about much and I struggle to explain the way I feel. I don't open up to anyone and I always keep my heart locked away. But somehow, you made it leap out of my chest. Somehow, you got me to tell you my deepest, darkest secrets. And somehow, I fell in love with you..

fivehundred'thirtynine



All the things that surround me, all the things I have. And yet I am still so empty. The only thing that's missing is you. It's amazing how much one person can really affect your life.

fivehundred'thirtyeight



I love music, I really do. And I love how some songs are like, medicine for your soul. I mean even though sometimes you feel like you could cry, you just feel lucky to be alive. Like, I'm sitting here and I can actually feel my heart aching because the words are just so damn true. It's sad but at the same time it's such a great feeling.

Friday, August 12, 2011

fivehundred'thirtyseven



I want to hate you. I want to feel like there is no one in this world that I despise more than you and there is no one that I would rather see being hit by a bus. But all I can feel is this pain and regret, and despite all of that: I want you back more than anything in the world right now.

fivehundred'thirtysix



I'm not even that upset, hurt, or angry any more. I'm just tired. I'm tired of putting in more effort than I receive. I am tired of holding on for nothing. I am tired of believing all your lies. I am tired of proving me wrong everytime. I am tired of getting my hopes up and being disappointed again..

fivehundred'thirtyfive



I wanted to gather up everything I just said and stuff it back into my mouth. But once you've said something, you can't unsay it. Your words are out there, aren't they? Buzzing around in the quiet of the room so you can hear them echoing back to you.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

fivehundred'thirtyfour



It's just so hard to wait around for something that you're not even sure is actually going to happen. But you can't seem to give up when you know it's everything you've ever wanted...

Monday, August 08, 2011

fivehundred'thirtythree



I'd do anything to have him back in my life. I thought that without him, I would be happier. I was so wrong. All I am is empty..

fivehundred'thirtytwo



She knew she had to be cautious when speaking to him again, for she had her heart on the line. And with simply one wrong move, she could surely find herself falling for that boy all over again...

fivehundred'thirtyone



Sometimes you just want to put other peoples happiness before yours, because you love them, because they deserve it. Sometimes you want to go out of your way for people just because you know its important that they get a chance to smile.

Friday, August 05, 2011

fivehundred'thirty



If you asked me last year where I saw myself in a year, I could quickly tell you that this wasn't it. Everything I am right now is nothing like I thought I would have been. The way things are in general are nothing like I expected. To see people I couldn't live without least year walk away from my life and become strangers, to see people that were once strangers, mean more than the world to me. Seeing time fly by in the blink of an eye and feeling like nothing ever changes. Feeling like everything thing has stayed the same through out these days, yet looking back at where I was around this time last year and everything is different...

fivehundred'twentynine



Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia. You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.

Thursday, August 04, 2011

fivehundred'twentyeight


The scariest part about responsibility? When you screw up and let it slip right through your fingers.

Wednesday, August 03, 2011

fivehundred'twentyseven



I like to believe in the saying "whatever's meant to be will always find it's way". However, the road drawn out to bring us back together is really long, or we're just not meant to be...

Tuesday, August 02, 2011

fivehundred'twentysix



I find it funny how there are so many others who would catch me if I fall, but I don't want them to. I want you to catch me. You're the one that caught my attention. You're the one that's always on my mind. Your confidence, your attitude, and the way we talk... Everything. The only sad part is, you feel the same way about someone else.

fivehundred'twentyfive



Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you're a good person and a good friend. What's meant to be will end up and what's not, won't. Love is worth fighting for but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you just have to move on and realise what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realise great things when they come around and don't lose something real. Always fight, until you can't any more, then be fought for.

Monday, August 01, 2011

fivehundred'twentyfour



The feeling when I'm talking to you, right there, is the exact reason why I never gave up when everyone else said stop trying.

fivehundred'twentythree



We don't talk for months, and I promise myself I'm mad at you. But then you message me and just like that, I don't care how long it's been; as long as we are talking.

fivehundred'twentytwo



I thought I was over him, done with all of this, but then there he was and I couldn't breathe.

fivehundred'twentyone



I guess the only good thing is now you can't let me down anymore...

fivehundred'twenty



It doesn't matter how much distance they put between us, my heart is still in your hands.