'thirtyseven

I want it to stop hurting. I want the tears to stop falling and I want my heart to stop longing for something I know I never will have. I've had my fair share of pain so this is nothing new. I could always snap out of it though; I'd wallow in self pity for a few minutes, an hour, a day. Then I'd be alright. I knew when to stop being sad and just start being myself again. But this time... this time I don't know what in the world to do. It's like I've fallen into this big fucking hole and now I don't know how I can possibly dig myself out of it. I can't escape the heartbreak, not this time.