twohundred'one

I don't know what it is about you. Maybe it's
the way nothing else matters when we're talking,
or how you make me smile, more than anyone else
has. It could be the way you say the right thing at
exactly the right time. But whatever it is, I just
want you to know that it means everything to me.
I miss you.

twohundred

You see that girl? Yeah, her. She seems so invincible, right? But just touch her and she'll wince. She has secrets and trusts no-one. She's the perfect example of betrayal, because everyone that she ever trusted, broke her.

onehundred'ninetynine

I'm tired of being sad. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of feeling empty inside. I'm tired of feeling worthless. I'm tired of feeling stuck. I'm tired of feeling crazy. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of yelling. I'm tired of pretending. I'm tired of dreaming of a life I will never have. I'm tired of missing things. I'm tired of missing people. I'm tired of remembering. I'm tired of wishing I could start all over. I'm tired of not being able to just let go. I'm tired of faking it. I'm tired of being different. I'm tired of being angry. I'm tired of needing help. I'm tired of always wondering when God is finally going to let me be happy. Most of all, I'm just tired of being tired.

onehundred'ninetyeight

When people walk away from you, let them walk.
Don't try to talk another person into staying
with you, loving you, calling you, caring for you,
coming to see you, or staying attached to you.
When people can walk away, let them walk.
Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

onehundred'ninetyseven

Why do I care?
That was one of the worst years of my life and I needed my best friend more than ever, and you cut me out because I was honest with you. And you were never ever honest with me.
It hurt. It did, but not anymore because you and me: we're done.

onehundred'ninetysix

It's like everywhere she went she left a trail of damage behind her. Nowhere was safe when she was around, because all she ever did was hurt people, no matter how long she stayed in one place she would end up destroying the hearts of many, causing pain to people and there was nothing she could do about it. She felt so helpless. Useless.

onehundred'ninetyfive

Even though she comes of strong, she still goes to bed crying. She acts like nothing is wrong, when really, she is just good at hiding.

onehundred'ninetyfour

I am empty. I am lonely. I can be surrounded by volumes and volumes of people, just to find that I fit nowhere within their assemblies. I want something to look forward to, someone to look forward to. Instead of distracting myself with games in my mind.

onehundred'ninetythree

Sometimes there's nothing scarier than getting what you
want, because then you truly have something to lose.

onehundred'ninetytwo

I've always avoided fights. I make jokes instead. I tell people what they want to hear in order to avoid a confrontation. I pretend to want things I don't want, and I pretend to not want things I do want. No one gets hurt. Except me. The lines are so crossed and blurred at this point that I don't know what I want. I just know I want it to be easy.

onehundred'ninetyone

It's getting so hard to be around you. Because every time I see you, I see a stranger. You've changed, and I just miss the person you used to be. The one that cared, the one that wouldn't ever hurt me, not if they could help it. But now, now all you care about is yourself. Maybe you never did care in the first place, I'm not sure. All I know is the person I loved so much is no longer there. Nothing is left of you. Everything's changed, and I miss the person you used to be.

onehundred'ninety

You don't know how many times I wished that I lived in a book or a film, where everything is planned out for me so that it all turns out okay in the end.

onehundred'eightynine

And that's when I knew I'd said something ugly, something final. Words I couldn't take back, regardless of how much I wanted too. There was no way out for this.

onehundred'eightyeight

I guess by now I should know enough about loss to realise that you never really stop missing someone, you just learn to live around the huge gaping hole of their absence.

onehundred'eightyseven

Never bother a girl listening to her iPod. She wants to be alone, not bothered. She's in her own world, where the only thing going through her head is music. A world where worries don't exist. She's tuning the whole "real" world out.